im still dreaming of you...and only you...
Saturday, February 23, 2008 6:09 PM
" why it's so hard to let go of someone that you really love"...even though both of you have a separate lives..doing his own and also with mine... i know we can't fix things together again..coz i know and i'm sure that he's happy with his life right now..but why i'm a feeling this?..it's just that i can't totally move on..it's been so damn 3yrs that i still can't forget my one and only true love...i still love him. if i could be given a chance to live again i'll choose to be forever with him..Of all the guys who came into my life, still nothing compares him. i'm still searching the one who can be the same as him.. if there's a way that i can talk to him and say that i still love him,but then, how i wish i have the strenght to tell it again coz i'm afraid of what will gonna happen again...a year ago we had a conversation and he told me that we have to accept the fact that weren't meant to be..that moment my world crushed down..it's really hard for me to give up the love that i really felt for him. but the only thing we can do is to accept the fact..it's just that i really regret that we broke up.. i really miss him and us.. i thought he's the one that i've been praying for.. why can't we fixed things?.., in fact we both single.. and why am i feeling that there's still hope with us coz im still dreaming of him..every night in my dreams he's always there.. that we were happy together and we both love each other. but why then only in my dreams?..why i feel that there's still hope?.. that someday we''ll gonna find each other again. but if its not how can i move on?..how this feelings will disappear?..how long it would take?..im still having a hard time.. i hope there's a way that i can forget him. coz i've been drown by these emotions hoping that there's still a chance to bring back again our love...
~ hope one day you will read this..this is for you my only true love..and i still love you..i hope you will come back coz i really miss us.....but if you only felt pity don't come back....
my valentine
Sunday, February 10, 2008 6:56 AM
I remember the last valentine..it was February 14, 2007..this day I felt again the happiness that I'm longing for, for quite a long time..---------->It was a Sunny Morning..When I entered the gate of our school...I suddenly notice my so called bestfriend..that moment he surprised me of giving something that I didn't expect he'll give me something and also for that special day. That was the time that he gave me something, so I was really surprised! I'm a typical girl who is "mababaw ang kaligayahan" whatever you gave to me is so much and really appreciated! It's not a bunch of flowers, a box of chocolates or a cute teddy bear..but he gave me a twin keychain made of marble and form of a guitar with an engrave of "bhes q" it's a trademark of being our bestfriends. At that time I felt that he's really serious of our being bestfriends. He's the first guy to be my bestfriend and only few guys have a bestfriend who is a girl. I'm with somebody who is so special to me that I didn't expect to be with him.. although that day we have a class but I prefer to spent my time with him at the lockers!!haha...but we're not the only one who is in the lockers lane..haha.. I saw couples that was so sweet by giving flowers and chocolates to girls.. but that moment I got envious..I wished i had also a man who's so sweet to his girl..(everybody wishes it right?) however, I said to myself that I'm contented to be with my bestfriend and for me this is so sweet..we had a sweet talks..we eat together..and even played a guitar and sung for me too..
For me that day was a great Valentine's day. As long as you are with your special someone it will be a great day for you :)
----------->and as you can see..i'm in love with my bestfriend..but the thing is there's a barrier..i know he has a special someone and probably it's not really me..he open up with me that he love somebody and in my part I really got hurt. its just that i have to be contented that he's my bestfriend....and i have nothing to lose.. :)
I remember the last valentine..it was February 14, 2007..this day I felt again the happiness that I'm longing for, for quite a long time..